Nobody told me…

…that I’d be changed forever.

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.

I was sorting out old photos of myself when I was still single and although I look more or less the same with long hair and darker skin tone I feel like a totally different person.

The day after I had Joshua, the fact that I was already a mom has not really sunk in yet. It was like there’s me Van & there’s someone else - a mom; except that’s still me. Confusing?

After some time those two entities merged & it became a different person. Mommy Van. Nobody prepared me for that mind altering fact. I’ve become a new person. A new outlook in life, a different mind-set and set new priorities. It feels as if my heart is outside of my body and every move my baby makes is a milestone. When I decide, I always think of the baby’s welfare first before my own.

Any mother would agree.

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Now, everybody is telling me to STOP breastfeeding my 23-month old son. I want to really, but he kisses me & says a-poo (love you) when he wants to be nursed. Tell me, can you say no to that?

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  1. by eDs , on July 3 2008 @ 3:26 pm

     

    hayy very true sis, we’re totally different now. always our baby first before US. And “A-poo part” with Ozzy, it completely melted my heart.. simply irresistible… hay, motherhood nga naman :)
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  2. by Mhay , on July 3 2008 @ 5:17 pm

     

    so true…it’s hard to day NO pag naglambing na sila right? Lalo na if they began to kiss you and say the magic word “I love you!”" :)

  3. by Sheng , on July 3 2008 @ 5:56 pm

     

    that was a nice way of describing once motherhood enters a woman’s life!

    i too had your dilemma on when to stop nursing my kid. kaiden never had / never liked formula so i have no choice but to keep breastfeeding him. he was breastfed for almost 3 years!

    you’re right, it’s hard when he sweetly asks for it! a mother can’t say no!

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  4. by LAO , on July 3 2008 @ 6:03 pm

     

    please say no to that… please!
    he’ll be two soon…

  5. by kelly , on July 3 2008 @ 10:19 pm

     

    vans, that quote is so beautiful!

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  6. by Anneberly , on July 3 2008 @ 10:22 pm

     

    I totally agree Vannie, because you see things differently now that you have someone to take care of unconditionally

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  7. by admin , on July 4 2008 @ 11:18 am

     

    thanks eds :) it melts my heart when he says that too kaya ayan, nagiging spoiled na. wahaha

  8. by admin , on July 4 2008 @ 11:18 am

     

    hay mhay, tell me about it. ako, i have to learn how to say NO kase nagiging spoiled na eh…tsk2x

  9. by admin , on July 4 2008 @ 11:19 am

     

    sheng? almost 3 years? how did you make him stop???tips? ehehe

  10. by admin , on July 4 2008 @ 11:20 am

     

    yup Ann, honestly I was overwhelmed at first but all the changes & sacrifices are worth it.^_^

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Vannie lives in the Queen City of the South, Cebu City. She is in her mid-twenties, works in their family owned business and has recently taken on blogging as a serious obsession. Contact her at vanessa@abomar.com.